My head would be a lot nicer place if I just stayed out of it.
That’s me trying to be clever in describing my mental state this past week. I spend a lot of time in my head (don’t we all) and it sometimes keeps me from enjoying myself. This was definitely the case at Reunion Stellaire. One week later and I still hadn’t quite moved on. My disappointment was still bothering me. That weekend, I couldn’t get out of my own head which is something that occurs all too often I’m afraid. So instead of having an awesome time like my friends, I felt like this:
That strip was about as autobiographical as it gets for me. When I said Cyran was a reflection of my insecurities, this was the main strip I was referring to.
This is all building up to what I wanted to talk about this week. Why do I work on this site so much? Heaven knows it’s not because I have a huge following. I wish I did, and I’m slowly (so slowly) working on building one. No, I do it because when I’m drawing a strip or mash-up or writing a story it’s one of the few moments (other than when I’m at work at my paying job) I’m able to stay out of my head. The negative thoughts don’t come as often. I’m happy. That’s what makes this site so important to me and why I want it to succeed. So I can feel justified that all this work I’m putting into it is also being appreciated or enjoyed on some level by others.
It makes me so happy when someone mentions something they read or saw on the site. If they liked it, that’s even better. If you want to make my day, leave a (non-spam) comment on the site. If you see me in public, let me know who your favorite character is and why. I’m always interested in talking about my work with others but I don’t usually initiate though unless there’s something I’m really proud of. Of course, this only works if you sincerely want to know more about the site. If I think you’re just patronizing me, that’ll just send me back into my head.
In the meantime, I’ll write every post as though I have an audience. I’ll ask questions to generate feedback. Someday, somewhere, someone may care what I have to say, so I might as well practice.