Carja

Feb 142014
 
Feb 102014
 

“Why do I feel this way?” It’s a question I ask myself on a regular basis. I become disappointed easily. I have a hard time forgiving people when I feel slighted. I don’t feel comfortable maintaining eye contact. I wonder about how others view me all the time.

For a while now, I’ve been wondering if I have a light case of asperger syndrome. It made sense. A couple of weeks ago, I was watching Parenthood (one of my favorite shows) and Hank, the character played by Ray Romano, wonders if he might have had asperger’s syndrome his whole life without knowing that’s what made certain social situations so difficult for himself. I saw a little of myself in the character.

When these thoughts arise, I usually think to myself that I don’t remember things being so bad when I was younger. Is it possible I DEVELOPED Asperger’s Syndrome? Is that a thing? Or is it a social anxiety disorder? Am I a sociopath? What’s wrong with me?

Today I did a little online reading. Just to know if there’s anything to it. Some of what I read I felt applies to me. Others less so. So I didn’t find the answer I was looking for. But would knowing that I did have Asperger’s or a social anxiety disorder even make a difference? I’m wary of self-diagnoses because it’s not always easy to be completely honest with one’s self. Is a person just ascribing these symptoms on themselves because they’ve convinced themselves that it’s easier to just say, “Oh, that’s my Asperger’s talking.”

I’ll never really know for sure what my problem is unless I consult an expert and that’s something I’m not prepared to do. So I’ll just wonder.

Sorry for the head trip this week. I didn’t have a great weekend and it’s been weighing on my mind all day. It’s not the first time I’ve written a downer of a blog like this and it’s likely not the last. I hope to have something more upbeat to talk about next week! Have a good one y’all!

Feb 072014
 

I woke up this morning unable to figure out if it was Friday or Saturday. When the alarm clock went off shortly thereafter, I realized it was Friday. This was a good thing because it meant I hadn’t missed Flashback Friday!

Zoë finally gets to be in a flashback! And what a flashback it is! Let’s not dilly-dally and just get to it. All pictures can be enlarged by clicking on them.

One of my favorite DC mash-ups was Zoë as Hawkgirl. It was the first idea I wanted to revisit for a flashback. Choosing different costumes helps me keep things feeling fresher, so I went with the Hawkgirl costume from Injustice this time around. Lots of nice details. I was really worried about the wings with all those feathers, but I think they turned out rather good. As I was drawing her, I thought about adding a Hawkman to the mix. I thought, maybe Popkin? But ultimately I decided against it. It was when I had finished colouring AND shading Zoë that I realized I could cast Skitter in the Hawkman role. I started the pencils right above the finished Zoë and only ended up with a bit of his knee overlapping. Hawkman wasn’t in Injustice, so I went with the New 52 look, though with the iconic mace instead of an axe. This is my new favorite mash-up of all time, surpassing Steampunk Barnaby.

Hawkmouse-and-Hawkmunk-Rev

I thought I had finished everything when I noticed something was missing. The picture looked good so I could have left it at that, but I chose to go back anyway and add the missing bit. I’ve included the original “finished” piece below. Can you see what was missing?

Hawkmouse-and-Hawkmunk

If you said “Hawkmouse’s belt and pouches” you would be correct! Nothing major, but they were supposed to be in there so I went back. The great thing about drawing digitally is that making additions like that is a cinch. I just added an ink layer for the belt and pouches and then carefully erased the lines and colours from the layers underneath.

Because I like to isolate things, below are Hawkmouse and Hawkmunk separately. The standard width I use when resizing makes the Hawkmunk look bigger.

HawkmouseHawkmunk

Finally, here’s the comparison piece of the original and new Zoës.  My line work is so much cleaner now. Skitter wasn’t around when the first piece was done, so there’s nothing to compare him with.

DC-Zoe-TaN

That’s all for this week. Will next week’s flashback be up to the level I established here? Come back and find out!